♥, VIVIA-N วิเวียน!

“life will be better in spring”

3.31.2009 || 2:58 PM

♥

my heart feels empty,

but i cant seems to let you off NOW!

it is not the time now to let you off.

even i am not yours,

but YOU ARE STILL MINE for now (L).

trying to give you a nice BIG smile.

talk to alwin till 1plus, was bored & tired.

but after he hangup. i wasnt.

i went to finish maths homework.

dden around 4am den sleep. ZZZ.

tired uh, stupid.

i think somehow i made you angry?

*SCREWWED ME.!

went to school, took bus with shanika, & her friend.

took 139 toether to.

den i went to sit with my chocogirl, cause joselyn was taken alr.

went pass BMSS, saw qianni and her bf.

OMG. THANK YOU SO MUCH YESTERDAY ALRIGHT.

ily <3.

reach school & went to find DEANNA & CAROLINE.

i mix well with sec one though, :DDD

was ,moody @ that time. didnt felt like living.

went back to class, waited for bell to ring then go for POA lesson.

OMG, there was a quarreling sesion before mdm yani came.

shouldnt eleborate more eh. JUST RELAX.

never eat anything during recess. TSK!

weiling went home cause she not feeling well.

ARGH! i also want go home.

no appitite, argh! no feeling well maybe.

lessons continue to get bored.

soon, lose interest in paying attention luhh.

end school with a report writting & i think i screw it up.

mayb,BIG TIME!

took bus back. saw deanna and caroline.

take 139, saw brendan &chocogirl<3.

HOME~BATHED.

i smell nice nice. ahahahas.

got music lesson later. ._.

sorry for yesterday,

sorry for today.

but i really cannot let you go like this.

actions speaks louder den word.

i realy cant let you go.

HOW.?

i need to stop thinking abou penknifes.

i need to put STOP to everything.

including loving you.

BUT I KNOW I CANT.

i know i may not be yours

BUT I STILL WANT YOU TO BE MINE!.

i will try not to. but it is impossilbe.

it HURTS, i need medicine to cure.

I NEED ESTACY. ♥

i think i fell in love with you?

& i know, it will never be true.

i ♥ed you, deeply.

hope you understand.

iloveyou♥

3.30.2009 || 5:39 PM

♥

Missing someone gets easier everyday

because even though you are one day further from the last time you saw them,

you are one day closer to the next time you will.

Words are just not enough to tell you how much you mean to me

and how much I need you by my side, all my life.

You have touched my life in ways

that others can't even think of.

ily & imy.

took 139 to school with JOSELYN.

HAHAHAS. i miss taking bus with her.

walk into school. TSK!

DEANNA haven reach lar! stupid.

no insults lor. :DDD

talk to her until assembly starts.

lesson was tiring today lar.

stupid mdm. nurlaila lar.

crazy, so much homework to do siol.

assembly had some stupid talk.

thanks goodness,

i have TESCELYN & JOSELYN to accompany me.

i love you guys lots <3.

assembly end, went toilet cause hair messy.

went there with tescelyn.

slack there awhile den go out.

woohoo, tescelyn:

last long long with darren.

joshua & rhys waited outside my back-gate for me.

OPPS, am i like late? did your wait very long.

SCREWWED, MY HAIR WAS SCREWED UP TODAY.

went library to study. STUPID siol.

around 5plus, went to KFC.

go there also never eat, WTF.

:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

joshua send me to bus stop.

den went home leh. zzzz.

>.<

i am like real sorry alright.

i didnt mean to let you get nag or scolding.

argh! i just feel very guilty lar.

i am so so so sorry eh.

)': sorry.

i think i just extended your ban.?

but i guess i will miss you.

what if i said i love you,
but it actually turns out that you dont love me?

♥'edited:

FCUK. i am like feeling so dam guilty now.

i know you are gonna say it is no my fault.

but alamak, i dunno eh. just say sorry eh.

you sounded so piss/angry.?

did i make you angry? OMG.

i am real sorry if i did.?

i think i somehow bring bad luck to you.

oh gosh! SCREWED UP.

(*vivian just slap herself.)

)': can making me sad, make you happy?

if that will do, i am willing to do it.

i think i also cause too much of misunderstanding to your peeps.

i am real real sorry,to trouble you too.

imy & ily<3

♥'I MISS RHYSLOH, JOSHUACHEN, LIMJINGYI & DEANNATOO.

thanks alwin for cheering me up yeah.

*p.s:i think i am starting to ♥ you.

3.29.2009 || 6:14 PM

♥'SHOPAHOLIC-SEX.

i think i miss you deeply.
i wont be able to forget you fast?

HELLOS; baak from bugis.
went there for tution again.
SUPER DUPER COLD lor.
they want freeze me to death lar.
went out with mummy after that.
i got a new line?
hahahahas. so cool. hahahahas
mumy is the BEST!
AHAHAHAHAS. :DDDD,SMILE.
mummy also got me cosmetic which cost like 161 bucks! wth lar.
is dam expensive lor.
but i will use it de. hahahahas.
nothing much to do now!
argh! STUPID,my foot hurts.

|| 9:05 AM

♥' i doubt our love story will start.

hellos :D SMILING IS MY LIFE.
service was SUPER yesterday.
hahas. HAPPY 1 DAY LATE BIRTHDAY QIAOYUE.
ily, you are one year older alright!
went "BEST" coffe shop to eat ban mian.
OMG. i miss it dam lots lar!
hahahahahahas.
LIM JING YI & DEANNA TOO IS MINE.
hahahahhahs, no stealing it alright.
._. ROFLS. screwed, took bus back to BMC.
miss the stop before the interchange.
WTH!?!?!?!??!?!?!
in the end went to mac to eat and slack.
saw CARLYIN ' XINGAN♥.
i miss her lar.
went home around 11plus.
OMG, everyone is like asleep. SCARY.
bath & talk to joshua and rhys on the phone.
talk til 2plus den i hang up the phone.
message awhile & dden go sleep ler.

I'M REALLY SORRY FOR YESTERDAY ALRIGHT.

I really need you,

to be there,

to cure my broken heart.

just a little bit of concern from you,

can take away alot alot of my stress & hurts away,

I feel so tired everyday,

thinking about very hurt that give to people.

I know i am thinking to much

cause in my life,

this will NEVER EVER happen.

i miss you loads,

& this is gonna be long.

I WILL TRY TO STOP.

3.27.2009 || 8:21 PM

PUT A STOP T EVERYTHING,

I WILL TRY MY BEST.

♥'i will try to hold you tight,

but i know it will never happen.

ily & imy.

VIVIAN♥RHYSLOH

(just joking)

(wtf, i look freaking weird alright?)

HELLOS :)

went to school as usual.

OMG! sorry joshua, ming and rhys.

REAL BIG SORRY. never reply your msg.

i sleep ler. SORRY EH.

today got physic test. STUPID TEST.

so hard can. i can get ready to fail liao.

FREAK. SCREWWED UP.

have guides after school. BORING.

slack sia,teach the sec1 enrolment thingy.

but they are fun to teach.

LOVEABLES<3

dismiss at around 6plus.

waited for CHISTIE.

& christie: thanks for trusting me so much. ily.

:DDDDDDDDDDD *CHRISTIE IS MINE!

jokin only. TIRED.

went to dawson,saw nick.tan, his gf and nicholas teo and edmund too.

i miss them lar.

nevermind.

to the spammer:

GET ALIVE.

want spam, spam your name alright.

your marmmy born you with a name ba?

why not just tag your name.

BUSTARD/ BITCH. you think it affect me?

RETARDED.

i will try too. but i know i cant.

PICTURES OF YOU.

3.26.2009 || 6:41 PM

♥' walk into the valley of LOVES,

i just need you to HUG thats it.

{oh GOD!. let me b TALL; 48cm more will be enough!}

{rhys;ain't he cute?}

went to school as usual.

talk to this guy called alan on the phone.

he is nice to talk to.

THANKS FOR CHEERING JONATHAN (not the one afraid of frog) UP FOR ME!

anyway, i talk to joshua & his friend rhys till 2am.

STUPID LAR. but it was fun.
dunno whose phone got problem!

are we confrencing tonight again?
i think my chem test fail.

WTF, i dunno how do.! TSK!

but if pass. JOSHUA PROMISE TO GIVE ME LOLLIPOP.

i know a world biggest secret!

it is: JOSHUA AND ME ARE BOTH DIFFERENT WORLD.

I DONT UNDERSTAND HIS LANGUAGE NEITHER DO HE!

hahahahas. joking. ALIEN<3.

nicholas tan(gess), joshua and rhys came my school find me.

went to vivo with dem.

took bus, saw foogsze!

OMG, i am so so sorry about just now.

saw valentines @ pastamania with her mum. hahahahas.

walk around & slack.

went down to safra find ming and his friend.

i cant go in so they take turns to accompany me.

LOLS, thanks alot man. <3

took bus 131 home with joshua and rhys.

send this wheelchair man up to his house.

SUPER DUPER SCARY. wtf.

came home, my grandpa treat me drink.

hahahahas. i love my granpa lots.
HAD FUN.:D

thats all i know what to post.

LAUGHS. *SMILES*

hope that everything is fine now.

i dont wish to hurt you.

i meant my sorry.

---

♥'heard about you everywhere.

so hard to forget about you.

i HATE this feeling. it suck big time.

heard you found someone you love.

hope that is your true love.

keep her safe & give her your love.

LAST LONG!

3.25.2009 || 7:01 PM

STOP THE DRUG ADICTION.

how should i like start to post?
after school jonathan waited outside my school for me.
THANKS lots.
went BMC to study! hahas.
he brought his laptop too!
went to eat at mac.
saw wenjun'eviltwinne, wenxin'sweety & shermaine.
OMG! they are pretty okay!
went find ming after that,took 131.
saw 3weird guys waving at me!
ming tld me 1 of them is joshua!
GUESS WHAT? I KNOW YOUR SURNAME TOO
JOSHUACHEN! (if i am not wrong!)
talked on the way. went tai san to eat. wth!
FULL! and is very! HAHAHAHAS:DDDDD
imy, weifeng! (dont anyhow think.)
nothing much to say!

i just want to say i m really really super sorry!

i didnt know you feel so hurt.

i m sorry for being so selfish alright.

i didnt care about your feeling.

i think i know what you thinkig.

i am SORRY, thats all i can say.

3.24.2009 || 7:10 PM

♥'the cause of you,

make me think twice to love you.

i will try to STOP who i am loving,

cause he is the reason why i live!

went to school as per normal.

took POA paper2 from weilun.

hahahahas. thanks alot. you save my life BIG BIG TIME.

same goes to cherlyn.

I LOVE YOU TO THE MAX ALRIGHT!

raining today, sianz.

didnt manage to go sentosa!

hahahahas. was SUPER DUPER cold in the class.

*freezed* :DDDDD ahchoooooooo.

was very very sleepy.

waited for valentina after school lor

(talking to minhui at the same time.)

valentina reach le. she alight from the bus 145.

WAH, STUPID SIA. in the end,

she had to go up and tap again.

VALENTINA, DA BAI CHI!

hahahas. nevermind, i still love you♥.

went vivo. talk to ain!

OMG, she isa STAR lover, so am i!

haahas. reached vivo, went to minitoons

while waiting for jonathan. hahahas.

HE IS LATE!!! ARGH! got ain a star lace!

hahahs. me got one tooo.

BORED. slack at vivo awhile till 6,

and here i am posting lor.

ROT, STUDY, MUGGING!

currently messaging jonathan, valentina & eddie!

hahas.

to jonathan(not the one afraid of frog):

CHEERUP ALRIGHT!

SMILE :DDD

dont ever have low-self esteem!

i believe you can dde.

to valentina:

SORRY, PS YOU JUST NOW!

dont emo alright. i love you.

TO THE MAXXXXXX!!!

to eddie:

hahahahas.:DD

I AM ALWAYS SMART!

HEHE. XD.

(peeps, dont get the wrong idea!)

3.23.2009 || 7:12 PM

♥'you turn my world upside~down.

outing to town today with valentina, alwin, alvin & ming.

WENT TO EAT LOTS OF THINGS!

chew chew chew your food gently down your throat.

weifeng didnt go out today. sorry cant accompany you.

1 more day to camp! HOPE YOU ENJOY THE CAMP, PIGGY.

i will miss you tons. (dont get the wrong idea peeps.)

nothing much to post le.

gong jp after school tml with valentina!

3.22.2009 || 9:32 PM

❤' I WILL GET OVER IT SOON.

BUT ITS NEVER GONNA FADE AWAY.

want a cup of c.tail?

thats all the photos :)

HELLOS;
went bugis for tution around 1 plus.
cab down with my bloodsister. (:
tution was like ARGH!
IT REALLY SUCK BIG TIME LA.
then my mum accompany me until 4 plus lar.
THANKS TO VALENTINA, ALVIN & ALWIN!
idoits! (not insultng alright!)
got 2 dress. one for me and the other fo deanna!
HAHAS (: ily, deanna.
DONT BE JEALOUS.
bloodsister ame and join us @ 5 after her tution.
took neoprint @ bugis junction.
HAAHAHAS. all 5 of us.
dam cute the photo. NOT refering to me!
ALWIN: I LOOK NICE TODAY!
ME: NO I DONT.
ALWIN: DONT HAVE LOW-SELF ESTEEM(smth like that!)
wth lar!!!! but thanks yeah.
went play arcade! super duper fun lo!
I SAW VALENTINA WEAR DRESS!
she is HOT!!! CAUTION!! (: SEXYAE!
had lots of fun today. :))
took 175 home cause valentina only take that bus!
we want to pei her, hahahahahas. almost MISS 175 lor.
saw HOT guy. hahahahas.
valentina: HE LOOK LIKE JJL!
me: ABIT LA! but he is HOT! hahahahas.
valentina: dots. @-@
me: whatever! (:
reach home and here i am posting!
oh no, START OF SCHOOL TML!
sianz, tired! nevermind. thats all for today.
tml going town. rmb, meet outside my school @ 3.

♥'MY HEART PAUSEEE!

goodbyesss, & take care.

i believe in you always,

although we are drifting away!

i really appreciate everything.

3.20.2009 || 10:20 AM

JEALOUSY isnt my policy of life.

going @ 11.45 to take 197 or 196 later.

woohoo. going KTV with alvin(cousin), don & mabe kenn and jingyi.

hahaahahas jingyi, hope you get well soon alright!?

O YEAH, GOING TO PIZZAHUT to munch!

3.19.2009 || 10:30 AM