♥, VIVIA-N วิเวียน!

“life will be better in spring”

5.31.2009 || 8:59 AM

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electropop hot

take me to your candy shop.

30/05/09:

woke up at 8puslus, study social studis uh.

STUPID )':

texted baby♥ & xijie♥. hahahahas(:

went out of house at 1pm instead of 12.15pm.

FUCK, kena scolding. )':

WTH! "today is a real sucky day lar."

went find valentina♥ at vivo.

bought slipper from m)hepsis

(if never spell wrongly.) )':
headed to the bus stop. waited for 131.

board the bus, guess who i saw.?

hhahahas(: i saw QIANNI♥. (:

OH-MY-GOSH. imissyou<3

hahahas.(: valentina♥ say you very tall.

so must grow shorter. (:

wet down the bus at TBC.

headed to block 12, saw baby♥, sichen♥, garrick♥, dillon♥, tony♥, melissa♥ & yuting♥.

went to get bubbletea with valentina♥ & melissa♥.

den went off to the oppsite bus stop.

waited for 195 going queensway, thinkin dunno for what.

went to get lip thingy for valentina♥. (:

melissa♥ foloowed us. join the rest after awhile.

STUPID, went toilet came out ater 10mins,

your also no need to say i drop inside the toilet bowl right. IDIOT.
hahahhas(: lols.

walked to the bus stop, den baby♥ say they want to go pasir ris.

so i said anything, so walked.

while walking up the over-head bridge,

tony♥, dillon♥, garrick♥, sichen♥ & yuting♥ infront ran.

FUCKFUCK. ): ps us. WTH. baby♥ talked to melissa♥ about something.

i walked with valentina down to the bus stop to sit.

melissa♥ & baby♥ came too.

melissa♥ started to cry. i ask what happen.

comfort her with baby♥ for like 2hour plus although i felt like i am a "shaobaxin".

dillon♥ they all also dunn wann pick up the call!

FUCK! at last call back uh. ): ps kia.

took bus down to pasir ris. find them. bus it was around 6plus.

& it was gonna rain lar. WTH!

very unlucky day. ):

the only think for he whole day is walk & walk.

hahahas. (: valentina♥ did you lose weight!?

text xijie♥. hahas(: dumbdumb.

went back with the rest, had quite much fun although is on the way back.

LAUGHS* went to eat ban mian @ TBC.

very nice uh, hahhas. saw limjingyi♥ there.

came to join. talked while eating. (:

went home around 11plus. TIRED.

talked to baby♥ until 1am.

yeah, melissa♥ and tony♥ is fine now!

i am happy for your.

bleahs.(: SLEEPSLEEP.

31/05/09:

woke up at 8plus, SLEEPY. (:

bet valentina♥ haven wake up.

thanks goodness its a sunday.

WTH! i can rest. heading to the market to eat later.

idk who is coming along too.

BLEAHS!

post later, if not tomorrow.

i promise peeps. <3

to melissa♥:

dont think too much already.

all he want is freedom.

at last you really listen to what i said.

i really hope you will change for the sake of your boyf.

now that you are fine, i am glad & happy.

remain like that ok. (:

ILY. ♥

5.29.2009 || 7:50 PM

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Love isnt love, if it doesnt hurt.

VALENTINA.[♥]

HELLOS;
went to school as per normal.(:
SLEEPY HEAD. imy<3 last day of workshop, most people will overjoy. idk why, i just feel down, it fun having this course SERIOUSLY,is the best course ever. i miss ben & jeff. they are realy nice people. went out with valentina to vivo. slack and play around, hahahahs.(: *VIVIAN GIGGLES.! (: wspend 30 bucks on shopping today. WTH!!!i am on a shopaholic mood again. (maybe is every time ba.) (: went find my sis with her friend at sky park. walked to habour front and go find shanika at mac. saw my smallest aunty there. went to find zavier and zares! i miss them loads. home wth sister. currently texting xije.
DO KNOWS THE GOALS THAT YOU WANT IN FUTURE.
& ACHIEVE IT WITHOUT FAILING.

*hope you feel better today. <3.>

i rather get hurt myself,
than to let the ones beside me take in all the impact of grievousness.
Feel like getting drunk now.
Red wine, Martell, Chivas with no mix~Kinda miss clubbing days.
Those high feelings although i did'nt take estacy.

5.28.2009 || 7:59 PM

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HEY GIRL.

BEATIFUL SUNSET. [♥]

*sorry for the overdue photos.

post tml, kinda very lazy to post now!

(i promise)

5.27.2009 || 7:27 PM

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it does't mater who you are,

where you come from.

it's the ability to triumph begins with you!

ALWAYS.

went to school with joselyn♥ as per normal today.!

reach school, had a SUPER ~~short~~ assembly in the morning.

FUCK, super hot can! );

went for some workshop after the assembly at IT resource room 3.

HAHAS. the first "teacher" who came in was benjamin.

had break during the session.

OMG, he dam funny luhs. but he left at 11, to go another class.

WAAAA )': nvermind. i still have friday to see him.

(ops, sounded wrong)

another "teacher" who look like sme LOTR actor.

WTH! but his nick name is called "TOUFU"!

cute uh. anyway, he also very funny. (:

NO WONDER,BIRDS OFTHE SAME KIND FLOCK TOGETHER .

hahaha.(; end lesson around 2pm. wet to find baby♥.

saw deanna♥ & tes♥ at the bus stop. (:

tok 145 with deanna, stop at TBC.

waied for baby♥ downstair dillon's house for 10mins.!

TSK! late again. )':

was listening to my music uh.

IDK why, i did had a mood swing.

i admited it. but i seriously dunno why.

DONT KEEP ON ASKNG WHY?

it wont help. SERIOUSLY )':

waited for dillon♥ to bath finish and head to SAFRA(bowling).

*didnt play, waiting for t.h♥, tony♥ and another girl♥.

had a small quarrel with baby♥ again.

FUCK LAR. )':

i really didnt hide anything from you.

i just dont feel like talking thats all.

why d0 you have to force me to say,

if i seriously dont have anything to say.

for the past 2days, i seriously dunno what you are thinking.

i cant understand what you are thinking.

i am seriouly afraid that it will make this relationship worse then before.

the love may just drift away anytime, at anywhere.

i am seriously confused.

ARGH! screwed me. i dont want to live anymore.

it HURTS big time, i hate myself for everything.

*vivan just slap herself.

SCHOOL, TBC, VIVO, HOME, VIVO & HOME again.

text baby♥, weilun♥, guofeng♥, engyang.

I MISS YOU.

Every night I still do.

I'm just wondering what to do. S _ _.

Open your eyes and dont say goodbye.

Hold on tight.

We're all intoxicated tonight.

I'm just hiding all this, all oh so well.

I want to try and save myself.

You gave me no interest.

Tell me you really dont want this to happen.

5.26.2009 || 7:43 PM

♥
You're a song i've tried to sing,
the note I couldn't hit.

woke up at around 8plus.
did POA & maths homework. (:
text baby♥ and jessica while doing.
neet baby at around 10am. )':
didnt get to his younger brother and sister. )':
thanks for the buble tea, baby♥
took 145 to school, saw cute guy lor.
*ops, no JEALOUS.
meet cherlyn♥ @ dawson. (coinsidence)
thank cherlyn's daddy who sent me to school on the way.
aunty came and see mdm. xusu. (:
wah, lucky she say good thing about me.
DAM HAPPY! (:
peiyu and weilin join. (:
waited for cherlyn's daddy to come den go off meet baby♥ again.
took 145 back to the same route.
met baby♥ at cresent. went dillon♥ house.
watch some "dramaqueen" show?

had a litte quarrel with baby♥

"I thought today would be fun,
but it turned out otherwise.
I was expecting more, i swear i was.
I didnt expected everything to be such a failure."

THANKS COOKIEMONSTER♥ FOR CHEERING ME UP.!

saw weilun♥ and avison in the bus.

*but i diff bus. just past by.

THE WORLD IS GETTING SMALLER

& SMALLER EACH DAY.

*fyi, i dont like to be sweet-talk my dear.

" I'll do whatever it takes , to turn this around "
All i needed was just a chance to prove it,
Or is it , you do deserve better than just this ?

dont tryto swet talk me,

it ill make this relationship drift.

cause i hate being sweet-talk.

Raining let the dust and vapour disperse the memory,

I quietly lean against you,

Looking at you,

looking at those mottled sweetness,

Love you but trap you and trap myself too.

5.25.2009 || 8:09 PM

♥

wackage of love.

23/05/09:
woke up at 8am in the morning.
baby♥ miss call me, cause need bring my sister go school.
den on the way find baby♥ & slack.
in the end my sister left first, meet baby♥ @ 9am.
i thik i was abit late. HMPSH.
thans for accompanying me uh.!
feel like i am "backsliding", i am no longer the one i use to be.
my vulgar language are like everywhere now.
wendy called me and ask me about my life with God.?
you must be very dissapointed that i actually lied to you ba.
i am sorry, but i realy cant make myself to go not because of anything.
it is just that the cellgroup is seriouly not in unity anymore.
i dont like the feling in there anymore.
whether i am presence or not, seriously, it makes no diferent.
went dillon's house and slack,
wait for dillon♥ and garrick♥ bath finish den go off.
"THE WORD IS SO SMALL, I SAW SOMEONE I KNOW THERE."
is from my chinese tution class uh! hahahas.(:
its nice knowing you. bleahs.
went to queensway with dillon♥, garick♥, sichen♥,baby♥ and two more girls uh.
hahahahs.(: v is attached to p (sorry not me, another girl)
took 153 (if i never remember wrongly) hahaha.
had some maters before boarding the first 153 bus.
FUCK the guy lar. singapore already so hot.
i want to go up the bus one okay.!
you dont want your problem uh.
sit the bus until my butt dam pain uh.
went hougang (if never spell wrongly.) slack around, eat uh.
STUPID RIGHT! go there just to eat.
anyway, baby♥ dont jealous about that few guys
who wanted to take my number uh. (:
headed to vivo after dinner to find v's boyf.
kekes (: GIGGLES.
went home around 11plus. sorry baby♥ .
although we did had some small quarrel over cookiemonster,
but i didnt mean it ok, just dont ant her and you to be down thats all.
)': sobsob. sorry.
i promise you i wont leave you because of her de,
dear♥ dont think too much ok! ily♥ .

24/05/09:
woke up abit later. didnt get to meet baby♥ in the morning.
but after tution, meet valentina♥ at purmei &
den go find baby♥ and his friends @ tony's house.
headed to sentosa around 5plus.
super hot can!(:
reached vivo, waited for sichen♥ to come.
hahas, this purple shirt girl came and started talking to baby♥ and kaiming♥
while walking in, valentina said something funny.
went into sentosa, very hot.
slack there. took photos.
the guys went into the sea to play lor. abandon the girls on shore.
hahahahas (: after that, pick seashell, suset was kinda nice too.
anyway, i had fun bathing cause i was dam sticky uh! so hot.
after a nice bath, feel much better lor.
i miss you baby♥ although didnt get to eat diner with you.
anyway, hope you get well soon baby♥.

25/05/09:
went to school today, OMG.
is a very hot day uh!
i hate to sweat. ): *tsk!
physic sucks to the core.
i hate MRS. GAN! ):
she took my phone away for nothing. IDIOT.
i didnt even use uh! wtf!
waited for MRS.GAN aftr school till 4plus.
rush home for tution thanks to my stupid aunty.!
thanks deanna♥ & jarren♥ for taking my phone to the inter-change,
went to find baby♥ and his friends.
brought jarren♥ and deanna♥ along. (:
>.< color="#ff0000">♥ until she got to go uh!

thanks deanna♥ & jarren♥ seriously.

i love you guys man.
took 131 home, baby♥ didnt end me home cause i dont want.
sorry uh, i didnt mean it. hope you had fun talking to your friends.
i love you♥

♥

it dont break your heart,

if you see someone you love deeply being happy.

but i beaks your heart,

if you see someone you love being snatch away.

5.22.2009 || 2:19 PM

♥

if you were the tears inside my eyes,

i would never want to cry.

because i dont want to lose you.

I JUST WANNA SAY I ♥ YOU.

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aunty is going to bangkok today!

yippeeee (:

School's like the same every other days.
TGIF ;
Thank God Its Friday.

Tired luhs :/ felt like sleeping everywhere i go uh!

didnt went for guides today uh, i am sorry.

text baby♥, ahhhs. he's so cute.

*stop denying the fact that you are cute ok.

heading to vivo @ night with baby♥ & sichen♥ .

'cause you're the only one,
who can make me smile like this.
Dearest you,
I'm only gonna love no one but you and only you.
我想就这样牵着你的手不放开.
I've lost you once for some reason,
i swear i'm gonna hold on to you tightly,
and never let you go again.

i promise you.

220509 ; 0922am .

EYKJ[♥]

5.21.2009 || 6:30 PM

♥
maybe i do love you.
let me consider it again.

(valentina ♥ is pretty alright.!)

♥oh- so, its love again.
woke up at 6.22am in the morning.
FREAK LAR.! i bath and finish every it was like 6.45am
one lift broke down so have to wait.
FREAK MAN. ): the first time the lift reach my house level - full.
nevermind, waited for the next one.!
KNS! the second time, i took the lift upwards. come down that time,
FCUK LAR. stop at every floor. make me reach the bus-stop @ 6:58am.
ARGH! IDIOT.
i reach the bus stop, still got one queenstowian there.
had the very lazy mindset. feel like taking cab uh,
but never. i want to save more money.
school was boring + the sleepyness i did have at that point of time.
WTH! ZZZ. i almost slept during geography lesson uh. LUCKY, i stayed awake.
i feel so tired at the moment.
went to find kanjun ♥, jingyi ♥, sichen ♥, kaiming ♥.
had fun laughter peace and joy.
hahas. jingyi♥ & kangjun♥ thought i was sad.
actually, i wrote something very long for you
but i guess you dont need it anymore le ba.
PURMEI, CRESENT, PURMEI & HOME.
saw joey while going home by cab.
chionging to finish my maths homework already.

yeah, you guys may say i am a fucking flirt.
for who i cares.
i am not
i just want to know him more before i get together with him.
i am sorry, but i didnt mean to hurt you.
i am not sad, you dont need to worry "baby".
i know you love me, i love you too alright ♥.

SPAMMER GET ALIVE.
WANT SPAM YOU RE MOST WELCOME.
BUT CAN SOAM WITH YOUR BIG NAME A NOT.
VERY HUM EH YOU?
HAIX, NO POINT QUARRELING WITH USELESS PEOPLE LIKE YOU.
GET LOST ASSHOLE.
*goddam you!

yeah, we broke for a reason.
but i still love him.

5.20.2009 || 7:01 PM

♥

is it hard to fall in love with someone.

STOP ADMIRING ME!

STOP LOVING ME!

HELLOS (:

went to school with joselyn♥ as per normal.

argh! i am tired/sleepy.!

first period was P.O.A!

freak luhs! SO DAM HARD can!

stuck at question 2 & 5 for like SUPER LONG lar.

I'M IRRITATED! cant i be smarter!

*I AM DUMB. )':

thanks cherlyn♥ for helping me!

STUPID weilun♥ ! ):

STOP MAKING STUPID FACES.

& i am not a PIG. you den uh?

*CRAZY RETARDED PIGGY. (:
went out with kangjun♥, sichen♥, pohmeng♥, jingyi♥, kaiming♥, meilissa♥ & tony♥.

SOOOOOO FUNNNY UH.

VIVO ; QUEENSWAY.

saw godfrey♥ & fiona♥ lor.

OMG! fiona♥ is getting prettier each day uh!

stay pretty babe!

many days had pass by,

i had tried my best to let you go.

you can hong or like anyone for who i care.

i wont give a dam to it alright!

i'm sorry for the change me,

but my heat no longer with you anymore.

I HATE YOU for what you are now!

FUCK OFF, you bustard.!

♥'EDITED:

i am attached to my one and only boyfriend,

EYKJ♥

i promise to love you & miss you every sec of my life.

i will try to be he best girlf you ever had.

i promise what i had said.

Nothing hurts more than

realizing he meant everything to you,

but you meant nothing to him.

Love.

yeah;

i am attach to you!

5.19.2009 || 7:09 PM

♥

i rock my life.

went to school as per normal.
i screwed my paper. )':
i think i will fail more than 3 uh.
HOMEWORKS & EXAM PAPERS.
uh, chiong uh!!!!
nothing much to blog liao.
loveyou peeps!

5.18.2009 || 4:35 PM

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SCREWED MY EXAMS.

date: 17th may 2009.

woke up 9 plus in the morning.

dam dam tired. woke limjingyi up.

HAHAHAHAS. (:

ate curry in the moning. T.T

comfirm stomach pain de. )':
heading to bugis for tution.

took a cad there uh, sis pay.

after that went for wendy-"mummy" party!!

OMG. the girls are like "WOOOHOOOO"!

all dolling themselves up uh!

got to know a few of peter-"daddy" cell group members.

GUESS WHAT??? THEY ARE SUPER TALENTED.

hahahas (: many performance by many people.

hope wendy-"mummy" had enjoy everything &

the PRESENTS we gave her. ((:

although its not your actual birthday,

i still wish you a very

HAPPY 21th BIRTHDAY ♥

in advance uh.

date: 18th MAY 2009.

wake up abit later today.

DROP DEAD TIRED. )':

zzz, although exams are over,

but results has yet to come.

*hoping that i didnt do badly.

i got:

english paper 2: 43/80

chinese overall: 64.5/100

physic: 19/50

geography: 21.5/50

p.o.a: 29/60

maths paper 1: 48/80

ARGH!!!! i screwed the papers.

)': i must study even harder now!! )':

i am sad.! (slap!)

saw * la. WOOHOO.

MOODY DAY. (sorry if i offended you.)

yeah,

we broke.

5.14.2009 || 5:52 PM

♥

STOP DENYING THE FACT,

THAT YOU ♥ ME!

went to school today for maths paper.

raining like shit. SAW EYECANDY♥ & SHANIKA.

WTH!!! i didnt finish the paper uh! )':

went home around 9plus.

SUPER DUPER EARLY.

baby♥ have wake up yet.

promise my sister go vivo with her uh.

meet beatryce & elvira in the bus 131.

SAW A BITCH who hit my sister & drop my phone.!

*I HATE YOU BITCH!

reach vivo, went to daiso den to LJS to eat.

baby♥ say he was busy, so cant meet me )':

... but i still love you. ♥

*hope you are serious of what you say yesterday.!

OMG!! full uh!! went arcade play. den pohmeng♥ come find me!!

hahaahahas. thanks for entertaining me uh!

slack and went to buger king to find my sister, elvira & beatryce.

teach them maths u, OMG. i cant believe i am teaching.

anyway, GOODLUCK for the paper tml uh

& do well girls.

went find pohmeng♥ again around 3plus.

slack and back to burger king join my sister they all.

WTH.i ♥ elvira wallet! * jealous.

went back to find pohmeng♥.

this time longer. half an hour eh.

talk crap, thanks for entertaining me uh.

STOP SAYING I LOOK LIKE A DOLL.!

*dont misunderstood anything.

~home sweet home.

oh & btw, baby♥ i miss you loads uh.

sorry for yesterday, it makes you feels that i am doubting you.

i am real sorry. but you must always remeber that

i will never leave you de.

you are the one & only one who makes me complete.
& without your stay,

i will be nothing at all,

there's nothin good about me i guess.
yets you dun mind &

still accepting the way i am n0w,

because of your love,
i have the confidence to walk a longer way with you.
nothing in tis world will able to tear us apart &

i'm telling you tat,
I ♥ YOU &

it will be always true with no broken promises♥

[everynite, after your presene,

i often cry to myself to sleep.

because,the love i was willing to give to your,

yet your silence is leaving me,

you hurt me deep within &

i am n0w without you by my side,

even when i am in need of s0meone.

yet with a faded smile!

我会永远的爱着你，

请不要跟我讲你又要走了。]

5.13.2009 || 8:08 PM

♥' is hard to find peace & love somewhere!

PICTURES UPDATED!