♥, VIVIA-N วิเวียน!

“life will be better in spring”

huh

2.27.2010 || 6:32 PM

having family reunion dinner later. wakakakakaks. went to church with alwin, kenneth, minghui and jamie today. heh. (: currently at my cousin house uh! and kenneth i am trying my best to be tall alright! (: bleahs. heh, time pass so slowly today. ): post soon yeah. loves.
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idk, you just seems to be another person. do i evem know you?! i was super shock to see you like that uh. every part of you. the way you text and everything. i seriously dunno what's going on uh.? what circulating around your life uh. ): so what if we were friends huh, i really dont understand from the beginning what's all this. sacrifices that i have made, the sweet-talking you have said. wtf! ): i seriously didnt expect much? so this is what you call friends? *maybe in your language bah!

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to fiona:
but who excatly are you to tell me to stop acting cute. dont you ever knew there was such things as " when you tell a person to stop doing things , they would do even more huh?" what if i love to do. no one ask you to see. who bothers eh. only you do. simple as that. dont like den dont see lah. i also never ask you to see eh. you see it with your own will. i cant stop you eh. what can i do. say eh dont look at me uh? you want me say that uh. okay lor. i say. i be obedient. "hey ! dont look at me.! " i said it. hahahas. (: sorry but this really doesnt affect me whether you are my friend or not. i cant re-call of telling anyone that we use to be close. unless you tell me who did i say to. maybe i remeber, cause i seriously do have stm uh. sorry uh, my memory abit too poor to remember uh. psps, i dont need your forgiveness btw. hahas. ops, sorry if i did hurt you btw. heh. (:

Labels: i have already given up on you

totally sucks...

2.24.2010 || 5:51 PM

I LOST MY PHONE, MY LAPPY CRASH!

wakakakkas. sadded. ):

EVERYTHING JUST SUCKS TO THE MAX.

post again soon!

no turning back, once it's done.

2.22.2010 || 6:51 PM

♥

everything just seems messy.

maybe it's the time to clear the mess.

eh-ll-oos. (: it's been so long since i post ever since my computer crash. F lah. must crash at this type of time. ):
watch percy jackson and the lightening theif for 2 times! (: hahahhas. very funny uh. i am trying to be random uh. just woke up not long, super sleepy. heading to play basketball later. wonder will the ball hit me?!?! ^.^ hahas. woke up at 2am today, great thanks to someone lor. (: hahahas. joking, didnt manage to get to sleep. talk on the phone till 5. meet ass at BMC mac! (: walao, saw some freaking retarded guy. wakakakka. ): so scary uh! heh,

THANKS FOR SENDING ME TO SCHOOL! (:

although i dunno whether you get to see this. bleahs, too bad if you dont. ahahahs. sleep in school for the first few periods. haha. played blackjack! super bad uh. gosh, chuanyong dam freaking evil! heh, had poa after recess. super tired. went straight home after school to sleep.! didnt expect that i really fell asleep uh. i sleep for 3 hours eh.! ): currently at my cousin's house while my sis balling downstairs. going down soon! (: heh. smiley.

JIAWEI, you are super cute.

*i swear. hahas. (: (i dunno what to say.) but your neopets account is still 18 months old. must faster grow older uh! heh. smiley.

i dunno whether i should just give up on you.

nothing is really going to happen,

so what if i still like you?

it's just seems like it's fading away soon.

i am confused, everything will just be treated as a fairytale.

i really dunno what to do. everything ended.

it's just seems like war had just began! ):

i think i am really tired of it!

learning how to give up in a way.

hope it succeed! (:

Labels: should i give it up

i dont want you to leave,

2.13.2010 || 11:46 AM

MY STUPID COMPUTER CRASH, CURRENTLY USING ALWIN COMPUTER WITHOUT HIM KNOWING. ): what the fish uh. i am sick during chinese new year, and it's sucks! )':

12/02/10:
met caroline at the bus stop and walked to school with her. :x meet the rest at canteen. had some NE message uh! ): super boring can. but the viedos was super cool. had assembly for CNY uh. gosh. dawn came back! argh! miss her uh! ): went home change, meet deanna, chloe, liangle, leona and crystal uh at p.s! (: wanted to play arcade but didnt. went to eat at just asia! (: but i didnt finish it, crystal help me. heh. went bugis shop for clothes! (: gosh. i spend like dunno how much yesterday on what i get uh! ): sadded. pei chloe go arcade till 7 plus uh. den everyone left. took bus 145 with deanna . send her to tution and went meet kendrick!
HE IS A BUSTARD UH!
bullier.! ): ass lah he, trip me 3 times. but nevermind at least you bring me somewhere nice yesterday. you realyl make my mood better. walk to some market waited for him buy food. drink awhile and went home around 10 plus. heh.
13/02/10:
woke up. wth, i am sick! ): sadded uh. )': i want cry liao. wakakakakakkas. i do actually feel like tearing. i am down. ): should i really leave you alone.? but i wouldnt bear too! ):

i need medicine to cure my feelings,
i am so dam CONFUSE now!
i really don't want it to happen again.
i dont feel like being hurt or maybe dont even want to.
i am afraid it will happen again without fail.
cause i know it will be.
SHOULD I AVOID, no i cant
i wont bear to leave you alone.
i guess i a already starting to (L)ove you.
& i swear i do, i cant make myself to STOP.
it will never be TRUE to be together,but i guess i will just HOLD you tight,
till someone has come into your heart.
(L), More than words can ever describe.
& (You), Nothing can ever replace you.
I LOVE YOU & I MISS YOU terribly.

Labels: maybe on second thought it will be better.

pain , tears and heartbreaker

2.10.2010 || 6:08 PM

when everything just seems not in place.

idk. everything just sucks today alright, WTF uh! ):
idk, i seriously dunno uh... what is revolving round me. everything seems to turn out bad! is like everywhere i go uh! tskk.... even with you. i really dunno uh.

TODAY IS A BAD DAY AND I HATE TODAY! I WISH THIS WILL NEVER HAPPEN AGAIN. )':

i want to feel okay.

i want to feel important to you.

i want to feel like you care about me as much as i care about you.

i want to be right and not have you resent me for it.

i want to to talk to you.

i want to tell you everything and not be afraid of your judgement.

i want to believe you.

i want to trust you.

i want to know where i stand.

i want to laugh with you.

i want to stop crying over you.

i want to have great nights and better days.

i want to be a part of your dreams.

i want you to be a part of mine, although its the truth.

i want to know you are interested.

i want you to initiate conversation.

i want you to see.

i want you to feel.

i want you to know.

i want to want you, and i want you to want me too.

i just want to, okay?

everything in life just turn upside down in a minute.

Baby, I MISS YOU. REALLY, SERIOUSLY.

i didnt even get a chance to hold your hands tight.

are we drifting? everything just seems wrong. )':

Sometimes,
i wish that my eyes would already dried out from tears,
even if it was meant to be blind.
so that i could already stop crying..

Cause everytime i cry ..
i feel my heart hollows inside me,
like even a intake of breath,isnt enough to take another beat..

its okay to cry ,
but if its too much,
its just wont stop ..

its not easy ..
never was..

Labels: can you hear my heartbeat?

p & s

2.08.2010 || 9:06 PM

♥
if you want me to stay

we were not suppose to be, but meant to be.

suppose to meet deanna in the morning lah. ass. came super late lah she. nevermind, still manage to practice abit. text baby, leona, jooseng uh. heh, stupid lah. you this ass, bluff me. i fall into your tricks again. had assembly, super funny uh. i didnt know yunfeng can play guitar. hahahas. dam funny lah. had some assembly talk, super funny uh. talk to weitian. ass lah he. nevermind, he bully me, i am gonna kill him. buhahahahhahas. his watch is still with me. ate lunch with arron, dillon and his friend. dalston and weeliang came and join. hahas. dillon went up first. got food for deanna and went back to class uh. wah, ass lah, suppose to start P.M at 3.30 den this fat guy went to drag our time. tskk. so pissed with him. wasted my time. nevermind. after P.M pei deanna, dillon and brian (if i never spell wrongly) stayed too. hahas. GOSH, i this small boy play dam well in guitar uh. I AM JEALOUS. heh, i want his skills, super smart leh. sadded lah. wakakakakakakka. walk to bus stop with brian. heh, super funny uh he. stupid uh, one 139 left leh. so hot lor. pei baby take bus to interchange uh den take 131. heh , went home change then went play basketball till 8 plus. hahas. super fun, heh.
LAUGH, SMILES, GIGGLES.
CURRENTLY CRAPPING WITH CHEW SIEW FANG.

CHEW SIEW FANG, you ahliann.
DEANNA TOO DAO XIN, YOU SUCK!.
love isnt all about heartbreak;
heartbreak isnt all about pain,
pain isnt all about tears or sorrow,
but just a path of growing up and moving on:
struck like lightning,
love like nothing nuturing my strength,
empowering the inner self touch your heart,
hold your soul and embrace your spirit &
all you will find within you is,
True love, Happiness ♥

trying hard to stoping thinking.

Labels: HOLDING ON.

fairytales dows not exist in reality

2.05.2010 || 12:15 PM

moodless day;

hellos, currently at school computer lab posting again! =D went schol with my sister today! (: heh, waited for chloe at bus stop but hor, she ask me go first! )': scared i was late. heh, wakakakka. text baby, jooseng, siewfang and chloe. (: SMILEY. hahahas, had poa lesson. after that had maths lesson.
I SCORE 22/30!
weehee~ i got distinction leh. ahahhas.
baby you owe me a drink! and i want it cold.
bleahs! (: giggles. heh, stupid lah. baby phone kena confiscated. went find leona, chloe, deanna, adraian and nicole.! heh, den madm nurila came in. heh. (: she is so cute alright. hahas. talked to baby <3.>
LALALALALAS~
CHEW SIEW FANG IS AN AHLIAN! I AM SCARED OF HER! )':
BUT
I LOVE YOU!

Labels: you make me addict.

i miss you

2.03.2010 || 2:53 PM

the only thing i hope is

you will never leave!

hellos; currently in school computer lab blogging. heh, super funny. now english lesson. ^^ went school with B today. (: heh, woke up super late uh, although sleep super early. ((: heh, growing into a pig uh. =D hahahas. super funny uh today.! (: i will try post later when i get home.
B, i miss you! (:

edited:
"life is one line away from truth."
baby sent me home today, yippee. (: heh, super super super hyper uh.! (:
*HAPPY, SMILE, LAUGH, GIGGLES.
hmph, reach home at around 7pm. watch some retarded show uh. (: heh, anyway i was suppose to post this yesterday but i didn't , so now i am going to post:
CHEW SIEW FANG, I LOVE YOU.!
heh, i wish my hair could grow longer. gosh, i am being random!
*ops. =D for in-case 默默人 say i biased hor, i shall post:
BENJ. CHEW WAI LOONG, I LOVE YOU!

Labels: hold on tight.

2.02.2010 || 9:16 PM

♥
Missing someone gets easier everyday
because even though you are one day further from the last time you saw them,
you are one day closer to the next time you will.
Words are just not enough to tell you how much you mean to me
and how much I need you by my side, all my life.
You have touched my life in ways
that others can't even think of.
ily & imy.

just finish my ace learning test and i failed! ahahas. no mood to do uh. went school with B today.! (: hahas, second time he take bus to school uh. always cab, waste money uh! TSKK! had fun after school and everything. heh, jooseng cut his hair and he don't let me see. SUCKER!! ): don;t friend you den you know! heh. i don't know what to post leh arhx! ): anyway,
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to someone special:
don't try thinking too much already alright.
i promised you will still have my love.!
you are not a (f) person alright.
it does'nt really matters to me.
i just don't want to see you unhappy uh.
i didn't mean to hide it from you.
just wanted to give you a suprise.
sorry, no more anyhow thinking uh.!
stupid baby.! (:

iloveyou.