HELLOS, didnt go to school today, but heading to school to collect homework later. gonna meet t and karen! :D heh, thankyou for being there to support me when i fall! i love you guys, i really dont know what will happen if i didnt have you peeps. hahas, you know what. that stupid lawrence told me he will be back in 10days, freak! until now also haven come back! i want my gift!!! ): BADBAD! someone once told me that " if you love the person, you dont need him to be by your side, you just want him to be happy thats it. if he dont appreciate it, that is it, no point shedding tears for him, he may take it as crocodile tears. " GOSH, i totally agree with this sentence! i cant remember whose that person who told me but BIG THANKYOU to you! sometimes, people just dunno how to appreciate things that are right infront of them lah. have they ever thought what was the reason that they once lose them and den get it back. for godsake uh, by luck? of course not, how can they be lucky at all times.? wth lah, they didnt think even think of the reason, or anything uh! HOPELESS CREATURES! karen and t, i need you ! )': i cant stand living here anymore! FCUK, FML lah! I HATE IT WHEN I WASNT IN THE WRONG FROM THE START, YET I WAS TO BE BLAME FOR IT! )': i have alot of things in mind now, i am gonna break down anytime. i cant hold on any longer, i cant breathe! D: you both said the same thing when i ask whether i was dumb, to even say i wont be angry! i really dunno if i did the right thing now, people just dont appreciate it lah.
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bet you must be dam fcuking happy to see me in this state. whatever i promise, i promise. since if you do not trust me, what is the point of starting the conversation. i dont get it, dont trust den dont say lah. i mean i believe totally that i did nothing wrong, hellos. get your facts right hao bu hao? i trust that i aint in the wrong. you wont together with him , so others could get a chance to get to him right? moreover he is willing what. this isnt a fairytale, it was just reality that you didnt wanted to face it. i created my own fairytale that it, i dont care whether you think its a fairytale and want me to wake up from it. but sad to say, i am already awake. to you is just a dream, but not for me. i know what am i doing, as you said "i dont need you to teach me", same goes to you and i dont even care what you want your life to be in future,i dont give a dam to it can. its your life eh, i also dont want. and which girl would ever want to be the third party? i clarify with him everything before i was like even safe to be with him. cause i dont want to be a third party, you get it? if i knew i was the third party, i would even get to him. can you please understand! i have never treated you as an enemy before lor, please. i didnt even had that tought in mind, dont believe i cant do anything.! really lah, sort out whatever you had first before saying anything.

*fyi, i am not here to create troubles. SEROUSLY, i just dont want to get scolded for nothing. if you were me, i bet you also wont want to be scolded for nothing right. both of us are girls, i totally understand what you feel! maybe you wont give a dam about it, cause you feel happy that i am in this situation. if next time this happens again, dont blame anyone about it alright, you deserve it! ANDAND, only a bitch will take to know a bitch! so stop calling me, because i know you wont want to be it!
(if i have any spelling mistakes, grammer errors or anything, i am sorry. my english aint better den you! )

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cause is you that i love!

I wish i could put my thoughts into words in a more appropriate/specific way, wishing that i had english of a higher standard so i could tell pin down exactly how i feel now. nevermind!

I would wanna be right where you are,
If I could wish upon a star.
We're together,
And that's forever.

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you gave me strength to continue walking on!

I SWEAR I AM GONNA FALL SICK SOON! ):

HEYHEY, dont feel like posting much today! D: maybe before maybe after school re-open! ): time passes so fast! ): today, i made an improvement ! weehee~ i did manage not to think about anything else, not to let my mind be drifted away! i have a super good imagination, which i hate it! ARGH! *PISSED.! stupid! i want to take this freaking great imagination thingy away! i dont want to imagine, i dont want to think what i dont feel like it! it causes many many problems! i am afraid , i am afraid of things that aint what i imagine. maybe things are not that worse than i imagine it. maybe you were right, but i still cant accept it! D: my imagination is turning me crazy!!! D:

How can everything feel so right when it's in actual fact, wrong? HOW? HOW? things are like crystal clear! yet, i still feel it the other way! but at least i know i still have you ♥ !

i like it when you smile at me
i like it when you act stupid
i like it when you make me laugh with your jokes
i like it when you talk to me
i like it when you wish me goodnight
I like it when you randomly divert from the topic we were at
i like it when you always bring me out no matter what
oh yes, and i love everything about you.
My doubts are finally starting to dissolve.
Thank you, ♥

No more fairytale pretending,
I'll make my own happy ending.

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hellos, sorry for not posting yesterday! super no mood uh! ): i have been thinking alot this few dayys! time passes so fast and its gonna be the end of school holidays! D: sadded, uh! i have yet to thank someone that i always wanted to thank. but i dont think its the right time now! ): life seems so screwed without you, are you really meant to be with me? D: i hope you made the right choice ! ): everyone in life do make the wrong choice, but i am sure i wont regret because i feel comfortable and happy with you! (:

how i wish i was blinded
so that i wont be able to see
those things which hurts me
i heard it once and i saw it once
are you really true to me
or is it just another fairytale for me to dream again

edited @ 9:43pm:

YOU GAVE ME STRENGTH!

heyhey! went tiong to eat at around 6plus! weehee~ had family dinner ! (: SUPER DUPER FILLING LAH! gosh, i miss you! i totally didnt get to see you today eh!!!! )': HOW??!! argh, miss die you uh!!! i want to see you!!! walked homed, execrised! (: heh, hao lah. i am tired! gonna use fb!!! (: (L)

nights peeps.!♥

A strangled smile fell from your face
It kills me that I hurt you this way
The worst part is that I didn't even know
Now there's a million reasons for you to go
But if you can find a reason to stay
I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
Believe that I can change
I'll keep us together whatever it takes
But remember the time I told you the way that I felt
That I'd be lost without you and never find myself
Let's hold onto each other above everything else
They can take tomorrow and the plans we made
(:



They can take the music that we'll never play
All the broken dreams take everything
Just take it away
But they can never have yesterday
They can take the future that we'll never know
They can take the places that we said we will go
All the broken dreams take everything
Just take it away
They can never have yesterday
I thought our days would last forever
But it wasn't our destiny
Cause in my mind we had so much time
But I was so wrong
No I can believe that
I can still find the strength in the moments we made
I'm looking back on yesterday

YOUR LOVE MAKES ME STRONGER! (:

heyhey, super duper lazy to post! hmmm, i am the NUMBER ONE SUPER LAZY PERSON ON EARTH! (: but i am super bored now! stupid computer lah, so lag!

HOMED - VIVO - SENTOSA - VIVO - HOMED!

i have somthing i want to say

is that "i love you"!

but i am afraid

or maybe just scared that

it will just become a fairytale again!

should i continue to love you? ):

i dont want false hope;
i am so dam CONFUSE now!
i'm afraid of being in a relationship now.
i dont feel like being hurt or maybe dont even want to.
i am afraid it will happen again without fail.
cause i know it will be.
no i cant i wont bear to leave you alone with other girls,
who love you too.
i guess i already starting to (L)ove you.
& i swear i do, i cant make myself to STOP.
it will never be TRUE to be together,
but i guess i will just HOLD you tight,
till someone has come into your heart.
(L), More than words can ever describe.
& (You), Nothing can ever replace you.
I LOVE YOU & I MISS YOU terribly.

i love you, one and only one! [♥]