SUNSHINE!

heyhey, had english paper today! ): so tired. but i slept the longest among the other day this month! :D WEEHEE~ went to school around 12plus. meet girl at the bus stop. went dawson to grab something to eat! :D HUNGRY, heh. bought tibits and snacks! :D wakaka, i miss my baby! D: text baby today~ heh, smart of him to use his friend's phone. saw deanna and tes at dawson. walked to school, went back to class. girl bought me a super HUGE eraser! weeeets, she is retarded! keep cursing my small eraser to go missing in my pencil case! ): HAD A FREAKING LONG EXAM FROM 1.30-5.40! ): phew, finally over for english. but i still have to study! ): cant wait to meet baby on wednesday! :D heh, LOVE YOU. went dawson with tes and yiying. ate something and a cup of ice cream. FULL! ): homed, bathed. my eyes are red again, wakakakka. i am gonna to sleep earlier today. tomorrow have school! (stupid girl pangseh me!) wakakak, byeeesss.

tes, i post already hor! :D see i so good. you say i immediately go home after bath post eh! :D hahahhas, faster thank me! :D joking. I LOVE YOU GIRL! :D

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i wish i would be in that bride dress one day. ♥

school was normal, was late for school again! =.= sick and tired of being late. D: wakaka, ):
GIRL ♥ BOUGHT ME A NEW PINK POKA DOT WATER BOTTLE. & I ♥ IT TO THE MAX! :D weeeets, thanks girl, all the small little things you do that makes me touch! :D
had oral in the afternoon. I F.K SCREWED THE THING ALRIGHT! omg lah, stupid. )': bus homed, lightning and thunder! D: *scary! )': wakakaka, wish dear was here! D: But he will never be, wishful thinking! homed, bath. currently talking to DEAREST through msn! ♥ alright. i shall do work and talk to dearest! BYEEESSZZZZ. ♥

BABYBOY, i miss you more than you miss me alright! BLEAHS. :P hehe, although its been a week since i see you, but i believe that this will help to strengthen us together. your temper is getting bad to worse, tsk! I DONT LIKE! ): changechange! )': i have a super silly baby! butbut i still love you. maybe one day you will get sick and tired of me, i will leave once you can find someone better to replace me. I WONT BE YOUR BURDEN! but for now, you are mine ^^ heh, I LOVE YOU! ♥

If you dare to love, Don't be scare to hurt. Cos there' s no one completely perfect in this world. You have to adjust to each other first. Love is a mystery. Sometimes you win, sometimes you loose. As the sun will shine after rain, Love will be stronger after everything suits. ♥

SHIRLEY,
although i know you less than a month
but you are always there without fail so far
greatly appreciated.
thankyou , and i love you too. ♥

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THE WAY YOU SMILE AT ME.

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" chun ruk koon , poodchalat" ♥

love is the person you think about
when your listening to a sad song! ♥

I TOOK A THOUSAND PICTURES OF YOU WHEN I'M WITH YOU! ♥

SHIRLEY, YOU ARE SUPER SILLY!
but i love you still! ♥

HI BLOG :B
was late for school today by that freaking 1 minute! ): BUSTARDED! D: nevermind, pei girl late. AHAHAS, not only 2 of us uh, much from our class is late too! D: had to run around the field! FREAK THE MR.LIM LAH! i ran 5 rounds eh, bustarded. 3 rounds enough already uh. freak lah, make me sweat! ): up to class with girl, had social studies. super no mood to study at that time! ): I DONT WHY? )': had chemistry and geography was boring till i started to draw! ): felt so tired, sleep in POA class, mdm yani scolded me! ): (actually not really scold, ahhh. WHATEVER!) pon english and maths, went off with girl. she went find her boyfriend at home, her bus came! heading to bukit merah centre, bus there. sorry vivien let your wait so long. saw her boyf, hahas. so funny! :D hmmmmm, I MISS MY BABY! ♥ eat, slack, study and play! THUNDER AND LIGHTENING hits, started to rain. freak. super cold, hope baby wont be feeling that cold uh?! ): homed around 5plus, dead tired. i will try to sleep early today. too tired to think, everything just hit me today again! ): tomorrow will be a super long day uh! ): alrights, i shall stop here. post again if i feel like it or i am too bored too! byesszzz. ♥

maybe now isnt the right time to ask, you could find a better person than me. i aint the right one for you. ): i am sorry, i have hurt you. SERIOUS, you are nice. that makes you easier to find another girl. but not me, i do not live in your life. i will just end up darkening your life. you told me you will wait. but i dont care, even if i broke off, you will be the last in my list. not first, REALLY! stop wasting your time on me, you can seriously find someone better. TRUST ME! but i am really sorry! ):

Baby, i will never take you for granted. i will hold you close & tight to my heart! because i would be afraid if one day i wake up, i realise you were gone. Whenever i close my eyes, i see you. sometimes Tears will start to flow, when i think about things, those times when you left me out there alone. If only i could see you 24/7, so i do not have to fight over my minds thinking of you, and the urge to call you. to prevent myself from my wild thinking! ): you are the one that can make me smile, you are the one that could make me sad for days! yeah, but was still happy that you text me today although it wasnt that long after all. you promise to go home early and call me till i sleep. hope you remember your promise! :D I LOVE YOU, ♥

Will never resist hugging from the back,
instead, turn around & kissed on the forehead & hugged even tighter.
You said "I would hold you on tightly, and never let you go."

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everything changes, maybe even your heart too.

BAD BAD BAD BAD MOOD! ): My tummy is like freaking pain! ARGH! *stupid tummy to the max! ): school is like getting super boring now uh! ): SUCK! but at least i can go for YOG batmiton ( i think i soell correctly) ! saw ernest today, he came back for the course follow up! :D hahas, so cute lah. DAM FUNNY! at least i did laugh at the second! (: heh, homed. took 139 with eunice . vivien came up from her house bus stop! ): wait, suppose to be (: face. AHAHA, bus to interchange took 167 homed! vivien coming my house study! ): STUPID BENJAMIN, YOU BETTER BRING ME FOR THE MOVIE AND MY SHOPPING TRIP! CAUSE, I NEED IT RIGHT NOW! you asshole. you promise to be there for me de hor, ): I MISS MY DEAR... what should i do now!? super confuse?! shall stop here! byyezzz...

you make me wonder did you even really put your heart into this relationship! )': I SERIOUSLY TOTALLY DONT KNOW WHAT YOU ARE THINKING, you dont call me nor you text me. do you expect me to find out everything from your friends?! you once use brandon name to test out on me and ask me if i love you. my answer was i dont know i dont know! i want you to know the reason why i said this was because not i dont want, but i dont dare to. see what happens if i even put a tiny bit of love with you.? what if i put my wholeheart in, i bet i would feel like dying right now! ): (bet you must be thinking that i am dumb, too bad thats me. you can hate me, you can love me) it's up to you! since no calls, no texts, i just use this like an sms! i am going out with benjamin one of these days, i dont know when. maybe you read my blog, maybe you didnt?! i dont know if you do or is you who find out yourself! but i did say, so i will take it as you know it! is not that i want to go out with him, its just a movie, sometimes you really think too much. if you think that i am going out with him and you dont like it, den why you leave me there alone when i am down. YOU WERE NOT THERE AS YOU PROMISE TO BE THERE FOR ME! ): you dont tell me your problems and everything, i wouldnt know. you are keeping everything to yourself! be it in the end whether we are still together or not, i wouldnt want you to be like this. i ask you one question, DO YOU WANT TO FOLLOW IN YOUR FATHER'S FOOTSTEPS? (not trying to say your daddy but even he dont want you to become like that.) HE IS STILL YOUR DADDY OVERALL EH! plus, i wouldnt want you too! you said you would take care of me, so these is how you take care uh?! D: I DONT WANT THEN, I RATHER I TAKE CARE OF YOU. wouldnt it be better?! ): you know how many times have i being pestering your goodfriend about you, i dont even know if she is sick and tired of hearing it! ): she is always the one putting good remarks about you when you disappear, always the one cheering me up! you say "i love you", i am starting to doubt thats real. PROVE ME WRONG FROM NOW IF YOU THINK YOU MEANT IT FROM YOUR HEART! seriously not the first time shedding tears for you anymore uh! ): i dont want live my life this way with you! ): I DONT WANT TO! i want you to tell me, from now, what should i do! D: MY MIND IS BLANK!

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SHINEE! ♥♥♥

I FEEL SO STRESS UP BY EVERYTHING! D:

HOMED - SCHOOL - VIVO - HOMED!
girl brought me out today! cause didnt had the mood to do anything. TSK, feel so fcuk up with myself. whats going on! WHAT ON EARTH DO I WANT NOW, i myself also dont know!! (he is back, why are you still like this?) sadded, waited for your reply like for centuries, but so slow! ): i dont like, it mades me feel like you didnt wanted to talk to me! ): [i know i am thinking too much, but i just cant help it!] went shopping to de-stress! bought a top, a camera and an ahlapbet! ): I SWEAR I LOVE THAT ALHAPBET! ♥ heh, girl right! :D HAHAS, homed. shirley let me watch a stupid viedo. OMG, dam funny! (: she thinks i am stupid, but i aint lor. not as dumb as her! hahahs! i shall stop here to prevent myself from being bad mood at this point of time, I JUST HAD A GREAT LAUGH! (: byeezz. ♥

baby, ♥
go home early. you didnt sleep well already. i dont want you to fall sick. ): i want you stay healthy! i miss your smile, i miss your hug! ): so you must not fall sick uh! ): although if you do i would still get to see you but, i dont care. i want you to be healthy! :D sleep more alright! I LOVE YOU! && i aint silly! ♥

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I AM A FAILURE, NOT YOU!

suppose to ask girl to help me post today de, but since i can use i dont trouble her! D: it has been a disater this 3days. everything just sucks when you arent there for me. ): i cried and you wont there, WHERE DID YOU GO?! ): life sucks till at this point of time, i dont know what is plan for me now. I AM STUCK, I JUST CANT SEEMS TO MOVE ON. girl kinda got irritated by me today. keep dropping things here and there! ): I DONT KNOW WHY! ever since you disappear, bad things happen! ): although i am not sure whether you remember my blog link or anything. but i seriously have many many things i want to say. but i dont know how say it now. i am sorry for troubling shirley this few days! REAL SORRY, plus i aint dumb or silly! ): bet my girl is gonna keep me under "provation"! you called but i said i didnt wanted to talk to you cause i really dont know what to say, i feel so F. UP by everything. at that moment when girl left i really tear AGAIN! D: i dont know, i dont how i survive if i didnt have girl! ): I MISS YOU, i am still the one i use to be. nothing change about me. is not that i dont want talk to you, just that i dont know what to say. ): i dont want it to happen again, I DONT WANT. no more another time , REALLY! your daddy did everything for your sake. i am not gonna scold you or blame you. butbut you must know that everyone is FREAKING worried about you, you know that!!! D: TSK, do you even know how it feels? stand in my position, you will know. 3days without a call or information. i told S that i want you back safe, no matter who you end up with. I DONT CARE, just want you back safe! THATS ALL, i dont know whats on your mind, never tell me about your troubles, do you even treat me as yours or just toying my feeling. I REALLY DONT KNOW THAT ANSWER. i only know i did all the things that i can do to be your girl! ): i dont care if you love me now or what, at least i heard your voice, and know you are safe! although you change, i still miss the old you. I CANT BE AS HAPPY AS BEFORE, and i dont want to be. people sometimes just say why am i like this and not taking care of you and everything. i dont know, is not that i dont want to take care of you. I CANT EVEN CARE FOR MYSELF, my girl have to even care for me! ): i dont want to create anymore troubles. i once said "i dont want him to go to the outside world, cause i dont want you to be hurt! its scary out there, i dont want you to get out there to be in danger! " DO YOU EVEN KNOW HOW WORRIED WAS I AT THAT POINT OF TIME!!! ): keeping all the negative things behind. i practically slept for less den 20 hours altogether for the pass 3days! thanking people whom are there to talk to me till i could sleep well! D: i really wish you would go back to school. the future of your life is in your hands, not your daddy nor mine! i would wish i could go to the extra mile to help you. but i really cant, i encourage you to go back, you dont want. everything needs education now, go back to school. I CAN HELP YOU WITH THE WORKS YOU NEED TO CATCH UP WITH THEM! D: i really miss you, )': but i lastly still want tell you that i still love you like before, ♥ ! but my life is in a mess now, i want you to be by myside now, comforting me, telling me your troubles. I WANT TO KNOW! ): I AM YOUR GIRL!!! i dont want it to be this way, hope you really understand! i dont want to tear anymore, i really gonna faint anytime soon! D: you were so cold to me, and i miss the chance of talking to you on msn to ask you to see my blog. will there be another chance of seeing you read it, i am worried that your daddy might... butbut, i dont dare call you as you may not want talk to me! HOW? i dont want leave you there like this now!!! or maybe you dont even need me to be there even if i want to! TELL ME WHAT YOU WANT?! i cant read minds? i aint God! ): sobsob! ): I LOVE YOU STILL! ♥

in all my life
you are the first to make me feel this pain
as you are special in your ways!

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MY ONE AND ONLY LOVE! ♥

MY SWEETEST DAY! ♥

HEYYOZZZZ. i am too tired to post a longer post. my eyes are like bloody RED again! ): i dont know what is happening! D: SOBSOB! hmmm.. today was alright, and a day worth remembering! had, fun today although my eyes were like troubling me!
HOME ~ SCHOOL ~ VIVO ~ HOME!
currently studying geography and posting! omg, i dont feel like studying now! ): CANNOT, I NEED MOTIVATION! more and more before i start deproving again! D:

BABYGIRL!
you must stay strong, dont fall and dont cry! i will try to catch you when you fall! (HUGS) hope you feel better after it! i dont know if you are starting to regret but i hope you wont! i let you be with him is because he could make you smile and that will make you look more cheerful, dont like that uh! our anniversary is coming! ): i want and i hope to see you smile again! i dont want see you in this state, i dont want! D: hais, you still have me girl. although i cant replace him but, at least i not as bad as him uh! :D heh, i love you like he always do! ♥

i want you
thats why i need to study

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CAUSE I LOVE YOU! ♥

LEE TAEMIN! ♥

yoozzz, its been a day since i post! (: SMILE, I MISS BLOGGING! went to school today, super cold in the morning! D: brought jacket cause first lesson was poa! mdm yani say that our paper 2 were like "shit" i think, if i didnt hear wrongly! D: assembly, *hoping i could see "you" today! keep telling girl and T that i miss you! although you did not know! :D heh, OMG! i am crazy over you leh! ): HOWHOWHOW? i will try to cut down! ): (i dont think i can!) hmmm, went off to cck to meet jie, waited for her at the bus stop and went to cck inter-change to meet junjie and jie's boyfriend! weeeets, i have a good sense of direction today! (super excited to see him at that point of time! ) hahas, went woodlands, jie pierce her ears there! ): went typ after that. waited for benedict and his friends to pick me up from there. train to cityhall with benedict, his friend left us at typ library. benedict send me to the cityhall bus stop and left! :D took 197 homed, talked to junjie on the phone! :D hahas, LOLS. he is super dumb, so cute uh! :D smile! ♥ homed, bathed. gonna study now! (: shall stop here, byeeessszzz! ♥

i like it when you smile at me
i like it when you act stupid
i like it when you make me laugh with your jokes
i like it when you talk to me
i like it when you wish me goodnight
I like it when you randomly divert from the topic we were at
i like it when you always bring me out no matter what
oh yes, and i love everything about you.
My doubts are finally starting to dissolve.
Thank you, ♥

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