i will rather drug my life to get kill,

SCREWED THE DAYS OF THIS WEEK! _l_ i swear whatever good things i did didnt come in return! D: i totally dont understand why i went to believe you when you told me things that night. i feel fucking stupid, like i am a joke to you. to actually believe what you said. you totally just side your girl den me?! what posion did she put in you. i guess, nothing works out now. totally spoil our relationship. I HATE YOU, YOU HATE ME. i cant say anything. i did say that i respect your decision on who you want to be with buy i never say i wont hate that girl. DONT BLAME IT ON ME, you find this trouble yourself. you totally change, and i feel like i totally dont understand and feel about you. maybe that is a good thing to start of by forgetting you. but if one day you would come running back to me, i would hold on to you still. (maybe not, anymore. after this incident!) i put my trust in you and you fucking just broke my trust! I HATE YOU TO THE MAX. you knew i hate people who break my trust, yet you do things and hurt me. FUCK OFF lah, i have nothing to say about you. hope my sucky feelings end soon thanks to you! (not pushing all the blames to you, but just to tell and explain why am i not at fault!) bet you must be that happy now to see me in this state, congratulation. you successfully did it. i am "PROUD" of you. GREAT THANKS UH!

i still love you like i always do,
but you change and my thinking change about you.
but i gotta say that
I STILL LOVE YOU DEEPLY! ♥

Labels: you should be happy for what you did

will i feel your hug again?

IT'S A FRIDAY! weeeets, happy. but its getting nearer and nearer to o's and photo-shoot session! D: SCARED! ): wakaka, I MISS YOU suddenly! ): *cry! school today without my sister, if not i would be late! :D heh, bus to school, meet girl at the bus stop! heh, she miss the bus! so she took a cab! heh, but in the end she was there first! :D hahas, poor her. waste her money! :D hmmmmm, school. went through maths paper one. i scored 61 out of 80! HAPPY! but i have alot of careless mistakes! TSK! *Screwed paper, prelims, everything. had some poly-talk thingy! HEH, i am so gonna get into Ngee Ann! :D weeeets, ^^. lunch with girl, homed! :D shall prepare! :D update later! byyezzz.

i am happy, happy that you were there for me yesterday. happy that you were concern about me. you told me not to let my feelings fade, i promise. i swear i did love you more than i expected. but just to say thankyou for being there for me, greatly appreciated! ^^ thinking back about yesterday when he ask me to give him a chance. i didnt wanted to, but i was force to. i am sorry, be angry at me if you really cant take it. i dont know, screwed. how i wish you were there at night with me. so that you could scold him through the phone and tell him not to call. that was what i wish, but if it happen it will just be another fairy tale dream that i have get myself into! D: screaming for you yesterday, hoping you wouldnt leave me there alone. hoping you would call and you really did call. living a life full with regrets, i really dont know what to do? leaving with other girl, i will give you my blessing. CONTROL, i need to put a stop to it. what if you really throw me aside, and leave.? what should i do?! D:

Labels: i love you

i will llook at you from far. ♥

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRLFRIEND!
heh, study well alright! :D
loveyou. ♥

heyhey, went to school as usual. although to me everything seems screwed. ): had a great mid-autum festival yesterday. weeeeeets, took photo with friends, upload on facebook if i have time! :D HEH, kenneth came yesterday. stupid you, didnt tell me. your letter is at my house! *SCREWED YOU! -.- nevermind another time since you stay just a few blocks away! CHEERUP alright, LOVE.! ♥ home around 10plus - 11plus. HAH. almost late for school today. talk to Ms. Ng on the way, meet enzhao at the bus stop! wakaka, p.e was super boring. i should had just stay in class. had lessons and workshop! home after that, thought about many things. *SCREWED! homed, gonna bath and maybe relax awhile, having tuition later! YIPPPEEE! ^^v byezzzz. ♥

maybe things change, you have change.
i dont know why you ask for it?
maybe because you think that i dont like you,
maybe you think that my feelings fade.
but my truth is I DIDNT!
everything seems to go wrong in just that short while,
i respect your decision cause i knew this day would come
i have no rights to hold on to you now.
but i will watch you from far.
hope you find a better girl!
I-L-O-V-E-Y-O-U! ♥

girl, dont be sad alright. i am fine too. :D everything revolve around you is bad maybe. but dont give up! i am always there, sorry i left today. really didnt have the mood. i dont want to spoil your day just because of some ridiculous things that happens and its right infront of me! i will be alright soon. love you, dearest! ♥

Labels: total stranger

EVERY LITTLE CHANGES

headed to school today. meet girl and Tes at the bus stop. walk to school, girl was sharing her problems with me! D: TSK! i am seriously not gonna let you work in pub! I DONT CARE! wakak, had science (chemistry/physic) paper one. i think i screwed it! OHNO, tomorrow = taking back of prelims! i am afraid i would flunk! *SCARED, WORRIED! wakaka, homed. meet finn at my house downstair. she came my house till 1pm. join me and kenneth for lunch! :D HAHA, meet cousin. went KTV! Weets, although i broke down into tears during the time i was at KTV, but i guess everything is worth it! :D maybe i aint that perfect in your life. i dont know? maybe is me who make your life in this mess, make your life so dam fuck up! I AM DEEPLY SORRY! ): homed, didnt have mood to go out. gonna do physic and use the computer. byeszzzz. shall end here! ♥

maybe things for you is different, tell me what to do now and than. guide me through so that i would know you're with me. i dont know what your thinking. i feel like a dam subsititue! sometimes i really dont know what to do when i am this state. thinking back of the past, when we started out. you were find before mixing with them, after that everything changes. IS NOT ME WHO CHANGE, BUT IS YOU WHO CHANGE MUCH.

Labels: you are beautiful in my eyes

your love is fading soon, i guess. ♥

yesterday, went to church by cab with jingyi and finn! :D weeets, were late for service! D: wakaka, CONGRATES TO THOSE WHO WERE PROMOTED! (: heh, waited for my sister to come in church. before heading out to the opposite site to play. while waiting, celebrate yihyang belated birthday! weeeheee~ HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY! ♥ walk across the road, had a great time playing all the games :D hehe, super funnny uh yonglee.! STUPID EH YOU! wakakakakak~ darren also! D: chicken mac-nugget! :D weeeets. bus homed with sister, audrey and minghui! :D hahas, (: smile. baby dad called today, and i dont know what to say! D: wakaka. homed, tired! :D

today, had a weirdest dream ever! dreamt that i was being kipnap! D: OHMYGOSH, super scary can! D: SUCK TO THE MAX! SCARED! ): i miss you, baby! was wishing you would be there beside me! D: woke up by my sister just to try her food! RETARDED. but actually it was really nice. HAHAS, MY FUTURE HOUSEWIFE SISTER! :D heh, gonna go for buffet with family later, alright. shall end here. i will prepare for tuition at night! :D BYESZZZZ. ♥

Labels: your love pour down like water

you bring me life!

HEYHEY, woke up at around 8plus going 9am today! and i receive 10 text and a miss call in the morning! :D hahas, smile. replied text, and got ready to go out of house. daddy is sick, so am i! D: random~ i feel like i am turning les! OMG, shytt. NONO! okay wait, get back to topic! heh wakaka, ): baby's daddy called me yesterday. but i slept! D: ops, yeah! baby is homed! ^^v heh, happy! :D ask baby's dad to help me ask baby if he wants to go to church tml! baby's dad replied say he would call me! D: *WINKS. happy to the max. raining so dam heavily today. cab to school, grandma send me to school first before heading to cousin house! :D weeets, waited for tes at foyer. HAHAS. she told me she is drench! D: ohno, gonna fall sick soon too lah, better not uh! :D went up to hall first cause she waiting for girl! :D she came, but no sight of girl! ): SADSAD! she told me girl wasnt coming! rain was super heavy! D: sobsob. Girlgirl never tell me! ): sad, moodless! had chinese paper 2, omg. it totally suck to the max uh! dont even have a proper mindset to go in the hall! D: FREAK! *screwed everything! went cousin's house after that, played computer and had a great time with them. drizzling, homed with grandpa. grandma went home to cook for my poor sick daddy! ): cab homed with grandpa, thanks to the bus! have to wait for 19mins! D: wakaka, ): super lazy so took cab! :) heh, text sister. baby didnt call yet. what is he doing???!!! D: screwed you! ): I MISS YOU! stupid connection of the internet is so sucky today! D: *SCREWED INTERNET! alright shall stop here and continue doing chemistry paper 1 den! :D weeeets, aiming to finish the whole TYS of paper 1 for chemistry and physic! *yes! i can do it de! :D tuition on sunday! :D gonna clear my doubts! :D JIAYOU, you can do it! :D hope baby call later on and i will pick up! D: byyeeezzz. ♥

babygirl, you are still super impportant to me okay! D: i dont know, super scared you anyhow think also! you didnt tell me you wont sitting for the paper!!! i was like thinking why you didnt tell me, i tot you were gonna like angry with me, these days i never accompany you! D: SORRY! you need me there i will still be there alright girl! i am sorry to abandon you this few days. ops, i just went to study! :D hope we wont drift! D: SORRY GIRL! I LOVE YOU! ♥

shirley, my tiny little cutie shirley uh shirley! :D heh, dont be sad. i know you can get yourself out of this mess. if you need me i'm there for you! maybe not physically there uh. i am just a phone call away if you need me uh! :D START LEARNING HOW TO SMILE! :D heh, i love you, i dont want see you sad the next time i see you alright! SMILEY! *my symbol! loves! ♥

Labels: you are always babyboy

HAD CHEMISTRY PAPER TODAY! D; screwed chemistry! D: thanks to chemistry i have dam no mood to post! D: alright, shall post more tomorrow! :D hope chinese will be easy! D: SCREWED YOU, YOU ASS.! byeezzzz.

DONT LOOK DOWN ON PEOPLE WHEN THEY DID WELL. YOU ARE JUST DAM JEALOUS THEY GOT GOOD GRADES AND YOU DONT HAVE BITCH! :D

LOVE IS A GAMBLE

9.15.2010 || 9:06 PM

YOU ARE THE REASON WHY I BREATE!

heyhey, finally finish POA paper and chinese paper one! GOSH, i think i will screwed chinese. my mind totally went blank! D: shyttt! ): woke up at 6plus today, sister woke me up. went school with her, send her to school though! :D hahas, LOL. forgot to bring many things out like dictionary, money etc. went mac to wait for wifey! hahas, she change the time to 8am so i had to wait! :D heh, but is worth it! :D she came, ate breakfast. study awhile. the sky turn grey and is like gonna rain! TSK, pack and leave, was drizziling already! walked faster and it started to pour so we ran to the bus stop! thinking to take cab but no sign of any! :D took 186 to school, went to school bus stop and took a cab! I KNOW ITS RETARDED, BUT IS LIKE SUPER COLD AND I'M DRENCH! D: wakaka, no jacket! -.- school, find teacher. had exam. didnt really talk much to girl today! I'M SORRY! yipppee, first time manage to balance my balance sheet figure! exam finish at 5plus. went dawson to eat. SUPER HUNGRY! :D thinking about food during POA! homed, tuition! gonna sleep later abit tonight! shall end here, byyeezzzz. ♥

NOTHING CHANGE, MY FEELINGS DIDNT CHANGE
I STILL LOVE YOU LIKE I ALWAYS DO!

Labels: I PUT MY LOVE AT STAKE

you love my heart

9.14.2010 || 2:32 PM

The cause of true love,
never did run smooth

YOZZZ, woke up at 6.30am today although i slept like super early the day before! almost late for school today. wonder what will happen if i'm late. stupid, never want to think of it! :D HAHA, it's been long since i took a bus. guess what, i saw MS NG! :D ohmy~ it's really long since i saw her again, and she told me a shocking news! HEH, but not gonna say! :D only girl knows! *SECRET! girl meet me at the bus stop. (: had maths paper 2 today. ohmy, FREAK~ i didnt finish whatever i am suppose to finish. alamak, screwed the time! it's two an a half hour paper, but it's seems so short! D: I WANT MORE TIME SO THAT I COULD FINISH IT! ): wakaka, ate with girl, T in school. K came and find us after that. left with K , while T and girl go staff room! D: i'm sorry girl, i pangseh you! I FEEL BAD! ): bus homed, suppose to go out and study with K and meet my baobei finn at chinatown! but in the end, everything cancel! ):
i'm so dam sorry baobei! D: I MISS YOU, another day k! maybe with your boyfriend there bah! :D i think he would want join too! (:
MISS MY BOYFRIEND MUCH, ♥ . weeeets, talk to xiaoace on facebook. saw his blog. HAHAS, super funny. pon class somemore. see almost kena caught! LAUGHS. haolah, dont bully you. later you say i bullier! D: wakaka, erm. dont sad already! i really dont know what to say after reading your blog! ): DONT SAD AND SMILE YEAH! ^^ currently talking to baby on msn, weeets. HAPPY! :) shall end here, BYEEZZZZ...

BABY,I LOVE YOU! ♥

Labels: skin, Sun-kiss

HEYHEY, its being super duper long since i last post anything on my blog! went to catch a movie with siwei and calvin yesterday! "HAUNTED CHANGI" freak, i totally freak out in the show! D: TSK! siwei send me home,thankyou stupidpig! ♥ saw audrey and her friends at vivo too! :D weeets, long time never see her liao! :D wakakakak, woke up early today! hmmm, is 9am counted early or late!? wakakakak, i think baby is still asleep! D: idk, no calls and nothing. hmmm, idk whats going on now?! I FEEL LIKE I AM LOST! can someone bring me out of my lost-ness. I MISS GIRL! )': I FEEL LIKE I AM A FOOL WITHOUT HER! D; GIRL , WHERE YOU?! opps, hahhas. i know there isnt such word but idk how to phrase it, cant think it in a proper phrasing! D: wakakkaka. having tuition later and meeting deanna ♥ at tiong with my sister for steamboat. DEANNA ASK FOR IT, SO I PEI HER. i am not a pig hor! :D hahahs. alright, shall end here. byebyezzz. ♥
BABY, ILY! ♥

Labels: nothing else

shirley,
NOT SILLY LAH, dumbdumb. hahahahs. but you gave me that feeling mah! :D sorry uh! ): but i really tot of that eh, super sad lah! ): dont care, you better dont throw me aside! I WILL CRY FOR YOU TO SEE! :P heh, I LOVE YOU. ♥

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Labels: every little things we do

I HAVE TO STOP! ):

heyhey, currently at home waiting for time to pass so that i could go to school. gonna meet my beloved 2girls at the bus stop. weehee~ bet i'm like gonna be late uh! :D hahas, miss them loads. gonna bath soon in 10mins time. OMG, science practical today for physic and chemistry. bet i'm gonna flunk it, i have no confident! ): wakaka, my goodfriend is sad yet i cant help by cheering my goodfriend up! ): I'M SUCH A FAILURE! D: sadded. currently talking to baby and goodfriend! :D weeets, i am hungry and i want to eat breakfast! :D but no ones home! ): wakakaka. heading to bath soon. maybe heading to vivo to study with wife again! :D post again soon, byeesszzz. ♥
BABY I LOVE YOU.♥

shirley,
but i miss talking to you.
tsk, you made me feel like you dont want talk to me anymore.
you are always there for me last time, );
WHAT ABOUT NOW?